It was alright I guess haha. It's only the first week of the quarter and I'm already ready for summer, pathetic. I just finished my homework so that's good. I feel like I spent half of the day running. So do you sing then? (:
I actually miss homework. I just took three quarters off, aka a whole year because I’m lazy. And I miss running too :/ lol. Making me sad now haha. jk.
And yepp! It’s all I do. Well, not really, but it’s what I love most because it comes so easy to me and who doesn’t want to make money doing something easy right? haha.
If I were a book, would you read me? Leave me in the center of your emerald leer so I know that you notice me even when I am not there. If I were a book, would you read me aloud in the most populated of places or in the most clandestine of your many ivory towers? Because even I know I have belonged to many sins worth being ashamed about. Would you mention me to your friends, about the nightly rendezvous we share behind candlelight ensembles or about the many times we have spent stealing eiderdowns from pillows we held in lonely beds without each other nearby. Today, I turn an eiderdown into a quill and dip it into the blackest inkwell, stain it in darkness, and write of you while slipping into the grasp of the serotonin you elicit in me. I would hail the words belonging to the pages of your flesh in cotton fields while harvesting the fluff. I would read you to the elder women I sit next to on benches waiting for public buses or to the open fireplace of my home that crackles to your name or produces cinder when I speak of your absence. I would explain to pigeons how your eyes are green like absinthe, and, before they scatter into the broken embraces of sunlight, I would whisper your name into their feathers. If I were a book, would you read me? I would read you. With wool in the sky in opium clouds, I would read you, and close your book no more.
You said none of your followers talk to you. None of mine talk to me either haha. Anyway, I like the Rolling In the Deep cover. John Legend is pretty sick. He was in Seattle this summer. Hope you had a good dayyy (:
John Legend is one of the best(: I strive to be like him…. just minus the keys, because I’m too lazy to learn haha.
But yeah, I had a good day (: lol. How about yourself?!
Ever since I moved, I haven't talked to anybody cause they're lives seems to go on without me like I never existed. I felt like a bother every time I text you to be honest =/ and there's no need for you to explain for taking care of yourself cause everybody does,but they ask for help[just saying]
but i really do miss you tho.
You told me if I was going to pursue my relationship with JT that you didn’t want to talk to me though. I hate seeing friends hurt, so I couldn’t do that to you. So I had to do something for myself and go on a limb and took a chance with him. I’m sorry if I didn’t read the situation right, I do miss you though bud :) I’m always up north now, so I’ll text me and we’ll have lunch or something?
That’s post marriage kind of life, lol. I just want to live and regret what I do one day, forget about it the next. I want to get in my car one day and just drive it to Canada because I feel like it. I want to save up a lot of money, then just go to the airport and pick a city to vacation to. I want to go to La Push, if that’s even a real place lol, and jump off a damn cliff. I want to just do, and quit over thinking life. It’s ruining it for me. I’m at the time in my life where I’m supposed to f*ck up. I’m supposed to learn. And most importantly, have fun! So shit, eff morals. Let’s blow shit up! xD
To me there’s more significance in cuddlin’. Getting to hold her tight with feelings rushing. Smiling from the thought of comfort. Sleepin’ in her open arms. Gazing at eachother. Feeling nothing but the natural joy of love and happiness of having eachother. Yeah, I’d take that over sex anytime.
I’d rather go to a buffet and see who can eat the most plates. ;) haha.
Isn't it sad that we're all so young, yet we're so depressed, alone, forgotten, paranoid, judgmental and afraid of the future? What happened to being young, living life, having fun and not giving a fuck?